itesser ink: progress, uncensored

Not really, although that java I drank yesterday really destroyed my sense of time and shattered any "rhythm" I had going in my life. As such, it feels like there's a day that went by without me drawing in my sketchbook.

On the upside, I have a stack of 15 comic pages newly written, in varying stages between script and thumbnail. It's going to be a large experimental project for the duration of 2008 (well, really, from now till the end of 2008), and I'm still rather insecure about it.

There are large disconnects between what I feel is the normal process of creating and what I am doing. I feel that what I am doing doesn't make any sense, and I have trouble explaining (to people that matter to me) why my plans are logical and okay.

And on top of that communication difficulty, I'm concerned about the story being good. It's a situation of paradoxes.

A new comparison I just thought of is that it's like NaNoWriMo, where the goal is to produce 50,000 words of a novel draft in 30 days. Quality, to a certain degree, takes a back seat to accomplishment. My purpose is similar. I want to create and push myself on this project for the sake of accomplishment and progress in my craft. I'm not doing it for love, money, a publishing deal, fame, or Art.

In 2008, I will create my first graphic novel.

Over the next four months I will plot and script and thumbnail. In the next four months I will draft a schedule for posting pages during the coming year. And I will stick to that schedule.

At the end of 2008, I will pump my fist in the air, proclaim "I have done it!", and a world of possibilities will open up before me.

At the end of 2008 I will know I can tell a story. In 2009 I will work on telling good stories.